Blogging Blahs

Obviously I've lost any motivation whatsoever to blog - for months. I read other blogs and I both smirk and retch at the effluence of pretentious, self-indulgent babble - and wonder if others do the same at mine.

But since my little trackery thing tells me that a few people do pop in to see if I'm still alive (or perhaps they stumble upon my blog by sheer accident), I guess I still have an audience *wave*- and that in itself motivates me to write. 'Cuz the only writing I've done lately has been academic fluff (I can still pull an A out of my arse at the eleventh hour) or emotionally-charged journal entries - and ain't nobody gonna read those!

I've been a hermit of late. After struggling to the finish line of school, I've taken the last two weeks to do nothing productive, and it's been quite lovely. I've not yet mastered the art of total relaxation and so have spring-cleaned the living-room and kitchen, defrosted the chest freezer (which had become a solid block of ice), and started a cross-stitch project. But the rest of my time has been spent playing computer games, watching movies, reading fiction for fun, and sleeping. I love sleeping.

During this time, though, my mind has been steadily chugging away, shifting from school mode to work mode as I commence my latest job search.

I'm also finding myself more at peace with, and enjoying observable results from, the emotional and mental processing I've done over the last several months: reframing the events of my childhood and my life so far, clarifying my personal values and beliefs, and consciously choosing my responses instead of reacting from a place of repressed emotion - exhausting effort, but oh-so-worth it!